Random Acts of Potential Trepidations

Random.

> Most of the time my mind just floats away gathering ideas. I have plenty of ideas that needs action. I must do something.

> I miss the internet, which makes me more lazy so i should not be enabling it.

> I seriously need to work out and document my forthcoming 100lb weight loss for pete’s sake. maybe ill make a youtube account.

> the problem is fruit is very expensive here and there’s not much lettuce to go around. vegan life is hard enough as it is.

> Had kare-kare last night. Nothings tops it.

> Father gave me harsh words of wisdom earlier around 4am. take about a rude awakening. thats why i needed pot. but i never tried any illegal drugs. i just need a stick of menthol cigarette.

> I miss having a close friend who understands my language.

> I lost all of em and left a path of destruction. well, im ashamed of it.

> gotta log out in 15 minutes and go back to town. No proper internet there so i cant really put live wordpress updates as often as i want to.

> i seriously have to change a lot of things before time runs out. I do the word talk but i should DO SOMETHING!

> okay i should really log out now. Just saw the pacman and will ferrel vid. awesomely hilarious!

 

 

How’s everything?

I cant say that i have been good or bad or perhaps when im starting to write down things i tend to shiver up a bit and forget things that i wanna say or thoughts that have been clogged down my brain. Its painfully weird.

What i know is that i need help and extra motivation to do the things i should be doing for my own benifit. I need help and the problem is, i wont be getting any. Im on my own, searching for motivation, searching for strength and searching for will power. I need to fix things and prep myself for next year. I just need to do tasks efficiently, get a proper diet regimen and i should be okay.

I miss this blog. im fired up!